May 29, 2010
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Wow, I can hardly believe how long its been since I've updated on Xanga. I had planned to update when Kaity turned 2 but that's been 2 and 1/2 months ago already.
This past week I was struggling with feeling very melancholy and blue. I was feeling intimidated and inadequate. I felt like I was good for nothing and couldn't measure up to others' expectations. God has placed in my life someone who seems to think they have all the answers. After some time of struggle one of my daughter's told me not to let it bother me. That God made me ME and I don't have to be like someone else to be worthwhile. I really appreciated her encouragement. (God bless her!)
Anyway, as I pondered this, I came to the conclusion that God made us with different talents.. He blessed me with talents in sewing, knitting, weaving, that type of thing. He gave my friend Doris a green thumb. She loves to garden and has beautiful flower beds around her place while my flower beds are growing weeds and I hate the feel of dirt under my fingernails. (Shudder) God gave our daughter Susana a talent for cooking. I don't understand it but she LOVES to cook. Hey, not me! I'd rather turn tail and run! Just like Kendra Lily would do from the sewing machine. She has a talent for keeping a clean house besides a host of other ones. Some people have an aptitude to teach. Louise was such a good Sunday School teacher but for me it is a major undertaking and I am usually sweating to just get it over with. You get my point......
The more I pondered about this the stronger this thought became: No matter what talent God has given to us we need to be careful not to intimidate someone else because they can't do what we can or if their interests doesn't match our own. No one likes a "KNOW-IT-ALL"!!!!
I learned that a number of years ago when we lived in Guatemala. I remember well how a group of us missionary wives were visiting and someone made a remark like: "I wonder why ......" I am not sure what the exact question was but it had to do with childbirth. Well, since I was studying midwifery at the time, I knew the answer and began to instruct them. My answer was met with coldness and I quickly realized that the lady didn't want to know bad enough for me to tell her! Kind of a shock but I suppose I needed that lesson. Sometimes we just don't want to find out answers from people who act like they have all of life's anwers. I wasn't trying to be a know it all but I guess I wasn't really careful about NOT leaving that impression. So, since then I have not always answered someone's question even when I did know the answer.
But I am not perfect so if I have ever intimidated you with anything, I am asking you to forgive me.
And with that, I will close. Love to all.
I will try to post picturs soon of my Square Foot Garden and other stuff.
Comments (6)
Thanks for sharing your heart!!! Blessings on your day!!!
Good post...... Was good for me to read this...just today i was feeling terribly inadiquate as a mother. i really have NO idea how to raise children the right way or even know how to do something as simple as how to schedule madison's feedings! i compare myself a lot to others and i seldom, if ever, measure up.
Hugs - and remember just as you hadnt meant to be a know-it-all yrs ago, this person in your life probably isn't meaning to be either. Lately i think maybe God is trying to teach me forgiveness in my relationships with others - maybe me and you are learning the same kind of lessons this summer.. BIG sigh
Oh Kim, I hope I didn't make you feel that way. I cannot imagine you NOT fitting in. I guess you found out that we Glenn's were pretty normal after all.
Thanks too, Jennie. I appreciate the encouragement. I sometimes think Satan tries to get us to give in to discouragements. We just cannot let him do that.
And Rhoda, please let me know what the name of that book is. I really thought that blessing was awesome.
Love you all.
Funny you should write this today.... I've been thinking alot lately about how my ideas, wisdom, or even experiences can come across as being one who has all the answers. And since people like you & I have been to so many places and done so many things, etc., etc., we do have a lot to offer. Anyhow... I've been asking God to allow me to share when it's the right time, and to know when to be quiet.
Kim, from my earliest memory of you, you have impressed me as one who loves much. You are a listening ear, and soft motherly heart, and I always loved being at your house. It was such fun to reconnect with you the other week... and you still have a heart after God! =)
Love you~
Thanks, Louise. I still have a lot of growing to do.